CAROL LONG, Animal Communication
When I was studying Animal Communication, more than one of my teachers said that sometimes, animals just need to get things off their chest. Like humans, there is magic and healing in the telling. Libby and her mom were rescued from a slaughter auction in October 2018 along with four other goats by Lisa Miskella, who brought them back to her newly established Freedom Farm Animal Sanctuary in Middlebury, CT. I was alerted to some behavior issues they were having through Dr. Marcie Fallek, DVM, and volunteered to see what we could find out through talking to Libby.
About Libby from Lisa: Libby and her mom, Millie, were living at a petting zoo and were no longer wanted so they were sent to the auction to be slaughtered. Millie has slowly come around and does let me pet her, but Libby will not let a human near her still. She is very skittish and afraid. But, toward the other goats, she is a bully, always chasing and butting them with her horns. One of her biggest issues is when her mom is not in sight, crying and pacing if she can’t see her. I am guessing she is about 2-3 years old.
Our day starts when I go out to the goat barn and bring fresh water and fill their hay rack with fresh hay. Libby will stand on her platform and run toward any goat that tries to eat and scares them away from the hay. All the other goats will go around to the other side of the hay rack to eat or I put hay in another area for them so they will not be head butted by Libby.
I need to get close to her to do medical check ups, trim her hoofs, etc and it is impossible.
As I am going through photos to send, I am noticing that there are none with Libby and the other goats, she is always alone or with her mom. I sent one picture of the other goats having carrot treats and Libby is nowhere to be found.
About Libby’s Mother Millie and the other goats:
If I approach Millie slowly she will allow me to touch and scratch her. When I am spending time in their pen she will sometimes even approach me and lay her head on my lap for head scratches. It took about six weeks for her to start feeling safe around me. She is very vocal and if I remove one of the goats from the pen she yells and doesn't stop until they are returned to the pen. She does not seem overly protective of Libby at all and seems to treat her just like the other goats.
The other goats that share the pen with Millie and Libby are Matilda, who was a baby when we rescued her and is extremely friendly, along with Hamilton who was also rescued as a baby. Taffy was a young goat as well, very shy and tough to approach but not aggressive at all toward the others. Goldie is an adult goat who is very friendly. These goats were all rescued at the same time and have been living together since October 2018. We recently rescued two baby goats and they have been spending some time with the original goats during the day for a little while only when I am there with them otherwise I keep them in a pen next to the big goats because I am afraid Libby will hurt them. Libby watches them and looks very curious. She hasn't tried to butt them so far.
Messages and Questions from Lisa for Libby and Millie:
Millie, sweet girl. You know how much I love you and how happy I am that you are here with me. You are safe now and I will take care of you forever. Nothing bad is going to happen to you here. I want you to trust me with all your heart and know that I am here to help you, care for you and protect you. There is nothing to worry about now, sweet girl. It means so much to me when you come and put your head on my lap. It tells me that you do know that I am here for you. But I still sense you are worried at times. Please have faith that everything is good now and there is nothing to worry about anymore. There will always be plenty of grapes and bananas for you!! I love you.
Do you know why Libby is aggressive with other goats?
Do you know why Libby is afraid of humans?
My dear Libby. We have not had any bonding time. I have not been able to hug you or kiss you. It has been 7 months and you are still so frightened. I want with all my heart for you to understand that I brought you and your mom here to live the rest of your lives feeling safe and happy, with love and protection. When I reach my hand out toward you, it is because I want you to feel a loving touch. Not all humans are bad. I don't know what happened to you before I brought you here, but please believe me when I tell you that you are safe now, and feel the love I have to give you. Nothing bad will happen to you here in your forever home. The other goats here are your family. When I come to feed you all in the morning, they are all laying together and you are lying alone. Why do you keep to yourself, Libby?
Why are you aggressive towards the other goats?
What happened to cause you to be afraid of humans?
Why are you so terrified when you can’t see your mom?
They all love you and want to play with you and be your family. But you act mean toward them. I know you are a sweet girl and you don't really mean them any harm. I want you to be able to trust them as I want you to trust me. No animal or human here will ever, ever hurt you. I love you Libby, with all my heart. I will never stop trying to earn your trust. I cannot wait for the day I reach toward you and you allow me to place my hand on you and you can experience that loving touch that you so deserve to feel. I love you Libby.
With this, I begin the Session with Libby and her mom, Millie
I call Libby….
L: I’m here. I’m quite smart. I know you see a problem, but I do not feel I am the problem. I did not cause this!
C: Hi Libby, welcome. You are quite beautiful in spirit, in body, and I see your intelligence. Know that you, your mom, and the other goats are safe.
L: And I am angry. Yes, I am. (she kinda winces, and freaks just a little) I am afraid. (I see her white hot rage and fear)
C: Lisa asked me to connect with you today in this manner. You don’t have to do, be or say anything.
L: (she looks around, slowly) Ok. Well I’ll talk. I don’t like that goat over there. We are not friends. And this other one…(she shows me ‘M...Matilda, I think’), she’s dumb. And this guy over here, he’s ...kinda daffy. My mom is the only smart one. If we were all smart, goats, we wouldn’t have gotten into that fix.
C: What happened, Libby?
L: My mom is very smart. She always kept an eye on the important humans - she knew how to look for the signs of which humans made decisions about things. I learned to understand what was going on in great detail from her. (petting zoo situation) What happened was we had to let people poke us, make fun of us, squeal and yell at us. I didn’t want that! I hate it when they touch me! My mom told me I had to, or we would be in jeopardy. She said some animals who did not conform disappeared into darkness. She would not explain the darkness if we didn’t, and insisted I do as she said. I tried but I HATED it! (she shows me the kind of energy reaction that a human forced into a brothel might have).
C: Libby, you are very intelligent, refined and very sensitive Being and you deserve to have others respect and honor your wishes around your body. I am so sorry that was not the case, it was so painful, and upsetting.
L: (she’s in a crying state now) My mom said we had to, or terrible things would happen. She wouldn’t even tell me what they were.
C: She was trying to keep you safe as best she could, Libby. I’m so sorry.
L: And then she was right. (she grows quiet)
C: What happened?
L: I bit some human fingers. Not bad. But I said NO. Somehow all the humans my mom listened to knew. And my mom said it was finished, and then she wouldn’t tell me more. The other goats knew it was my fault. No one would say to me, but they all hate me because I almost got us all killed in a most horrible way. And eaten. Why would you want to eat me?!? They wanted to eat me. They especially wanted to eat ME!
C: Libby, I am so so very sorry you had to witness that possibility - whether in humans thoughts or actions, I truly apologize. It must have been horribly traumatic. I am so sorry.
L: (She calms down a little, raises her head for confirmation)
C: I see. I wonder how it was that you got here, now, in this safe place…. you didn’t get killed, and you haven’t been eaten, and you’re all here, now.
L: I don’t know.
C: Libby, listen to me carefully. I don’t know the details, but I think if you hadn’t started something by saying NO, you wouldn’t be safe now. And you are stuck in the trauma and fear, Libby. You made it out of that situation, and it seems like your refusal to accept treatment that was not ok with you is what started the change. You don’t ever have to go back. You also don’t have to defend yourself aggressively out of fear. (yeah we’re really tired of that - a male goat voice pipes up - must be Hamilton?)
I have some messages from the human, Lisa, who brought you to her home, here, and who plans to keep you all safe for the rest of your lives. I’m calling your mother, Millie, and the other goats to move towards us if they can hear us.
“My dear Libby. We have not had any bonding time. I have not been able to hug you or kiss you. ”
(Libby interrupts with a squeal)
Libby, Lisa has not known that you have been so traumatized with being touched. She will hug and send love to you through the air from her heart until you are ready, ok?
“It has been 7 months and you are still so frightened. I want with all my heart for you to understand that I brought you and your mom here to live the rest of your lives feeling safe and happy. When I reach my hand out toward you, it is because I want you to feel a loving touch. Not all humans are bad. This is your forever home and the other goats here are your family. When I come to feed you all in the morning, they are all laying together and you are lying alone. Why do you keep to yourself, Libby? You show aggression towards the others, I wish I knew why. Why are you aggressive towards them?”
L: They don’t like me, I brought trouble….
C: I think that is your fear, Libby. I think when you fought back, you got very afraid after that.
L: It was terrible (she begins crying energies again) And my mom hates me too now.
C: No, Libby, she doesn’t. Lisa also wonders: “Why are you so terrified when you can’t see your mom?”
L: My mom is smart and strong and even if she’s mad at me she can protect me.
C: Libby, you have PTSD, as humans call it. Lisa wants you to understand: “They all love you and want to play with you and be your family. But you act mean toward them. I know you are a sweet girl and you don't really mean them any harm. I love you Libby. I cannot wait for the day I reach toward you and you allow me to place my hand on you.”
L: (she seems frightened of that image)
C: Libby, now that Lisa understands, I am sure she will send you air love, energy of love in the air, that you are comfortable with. I wonder how you are going to get your hooves trimmed (I show her a picture of a human holding her foot, and working on her).
L: I can hold still! Nobody has to hold me!
C: But somebody has to hold your foot gently while trimming your hooves. In order to do that, you will have to be in close proximity to humans, and they will have to touch you, lean against you.
L: Lean with their body is much better than touch with the hand. Hands are awful!
C: Ok that’s helpful. A hand will have to pick up your foot.
L: Quick! Quick! I don’t like it!
C: I think it takes some time to do it properly - but they will be as quick as possible. Libby, I’m going to check in with your mom. Is there anything else you want to say?
L: I’m not that bad! Don’t hate me, please. (pleading eyes)
C: We understand, Libby. You’re very smart, sensitive, and you’ve been traumatized and need to heal from that.
L: Ok. I’m sorry (she has a lot of guilt/regret with her feelings of having endangered everyone)
C: You helped everyone out of a bad situation - Lisa helped you do that. She is your partner in providing safety. Your mom probably understands.
L: Please tell her not to hate me.
C: I don’t think she really does, Libby. Thank you for telling us everything. Bye for now…
I call Millie…
M: Hello (charming rich toned voice)
C: Hi Millie, were you listening to Libby, your daughter?
M: I listen to Eeevvverything. I’ve heard it all. Humans. (she shakes her head) But let me tell ya, this one is NICE. Most of them I’ve met are not like her. Are you human?
C: Me? I’m in a human body right now, so yes.
M: I don’t see it. (then she laughs, because she understands this type of communication)
I am the Queen, a working queen! Hard work to give birth to THAT one...She is like me, but hard-headed. I tried to teach her the ways of the world, and oh the trouble she caused! She feels privileged! To be a goat! Well I would aspire to such feelings, yet I chose to stay alive, and keep my brood intact.
C: Millie, Lisa recognizes and honors that in you. She has a message just for you to help you heal Libby, your daughter.
M: Is she able to be healed? She is who she is.
C: I think she can release trauma.
M: But she caused the trauma!
C: She didn’t cause the humans to poke and handle her, to be forced into something that felt horrible to her.
M: She didn’t understand life and death, and that those were choices humans can make for you. Ah, well, she does now…
C: Lisa says: “Millie, sweet girl. You know how much I love you and how happy I am to take care of you forever. Nothing bad is going to happen to you here.”
M: (she relaxes and sends broad smiling energies) That dear girl. Is she human, really?
C: Yes, Millie. She says: “I still sense you are worried at times. Please have faith that everything is good now and there is nothing to worry about anymore. There will always be plenty of grapes and bananas for you! I love you.”
M: Well we were lucky, sometimes I float on a cloud. But there are others, there is much awfulness in the world, and most of it comes from humans.
C: Millie, I understand that, allow yourself to know Lisa is on YOUR SIDE in this one. You know I connected with her because of Libby’s maladjustment.
M: She was born that way. She is afraid of everything. She sees all, knows all. Like me! But I did not understand how entwined her knowledge would be with her sensitivities when I taught her so.
C: Can you show some love to Libby, and forgive her for being who she is, and how she started the up-ending that brought you here?
M: Ah, I have forgiven her, but she does not see it.
C: Can you turn the radiance up on that, and make it a little brighter, break through the twisted perception she holds?
M: (sighs) Yes, I will. (looks at me firmly) I will. Thank you. She needs that.
C: And the other goats?
M: She bullies them because she’s afraid they’ll bully her. Yes, I know. Hm, Let’s see, I wonder where she learned that? (eye rolling energy)
C: Very funny, Millie. I know humans do that all the time. So sorry. Can you help her? She still pines for your love and approval, and you’re the only one she trusts.
M: I will. I appreciate your insights. Thank you.
C: Ok, thank you, Millie (I can tell she’s suddenly done with this). I send my respects to you, and love, appreciation.
End of Session
A couple of days later, I received this via email from Lisa:
“This information is amazing! After your session with Libby, I went out to the barn. She was the first one to greet me and ate grass from my hand. Then, she started frolicking around the pen! I have never, ever seen her do this. It was like she was happy. This was truly a wonderful experience and I can't thank you enough for giving us your time and energy!”
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